When you see me in pictures and in person I am certainly blessed and thankful, but I do still have terminal cancer. It feels strange, confusing and oh-so whiny to type that here and sometimes even more confusing than a year ago.
When I listened to a beautiful album last week, “Everything” by Darden Smith, I was transported to my in-patient rehab bed a year ago. First song is “Blessings” and whole album is truly beautiful.
This week I started chemo round 8 and Jo Ann and I will meet again with Dr B. If as anticipated, we will update each other and agree to continue this course. I and Jo Ann won’t ask how much longer I have to live because no one knows. Dr B will ask if am having any new pain and I’ll try to answer that strange question. Jo Ann will schedule two blood draws in about three weeks for Dr V.
- my sleep is frustrating
- my food is liquid … without sugar nor carbs
- mornings hard
- sentences about ’time’ are difficult
- I will read and change this update many times
- you will ask, “how are you?” and I really appreciate that question
- and I will stumble for an answer
- I will doubt this update
- I will read more of “21 Lessons for the 21st Century” by Yuval Noah Harari
- I will ride, lift, row and review parts
- Jo Ann and I will discuss parts of Anti cancer again
- Thank you for asking each of my kids and my Jo Ann, “how are you?”. If you’re lucky and you listen; they might answer that important question. I’m pretty sure it is more difficult for them to live with Garym than for me to die with it.
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“Everything” by Darden Smith, 2017
“21 Lessons for the 21st Century” by Yuval Noah Harari, 2018
“Anti cancer A New Way of Life” by David Servan-Schreiber, 2017 by Penguin
“Tumortown” by Christopher Hitchens via VanityFair